Digital Fuck You

Being a hippie laying on the grass. My back hurts lol

Haven’t been to the beach in a while

These days, dinner time has become the loneliest for me. After work, after the work out. Everyone has someone to go home to or someone to go eat with. 

I go home and lay in bed till i fall asleep.

So apparently I don’t fit into small shirts anymore hahaha

It’s 3am. After months of our time apart you ask me if im done hating you and that you miss me… What exactly is it that you want to hear from me?

I’ve told you i liked you, you told me you liked me too.

I’ve told you i liked you, you said, “this isnt what i wanted.”

I’ve told you i loved you, you said you needed time.

I gave you my heart, my scarred and war torn heart and you handed it back telling me that i could keep it.

I dont hate you, i will never hate you. I’ll just love you a little less than i did yesterday.

So let me ask you again, what do you want to hear from me? Because pretending to be asleep is going to keep me awake all night…

Came to a sandwich shop and was so appalled by the ignorant name of a sandwich I had to order it… The Gangnam rib eye…

This is what you call being fucked by the government.
4 months of income in the last fiscal year and I got taxed 8 grand.

I’ve started a “note” section to keep track of tidbits of advice to remember in daily life, maybe these can be applicable to your lives also.

I realized every time i make plans to go to a zoo or aquarium with a girl, that relationship ends up not working out the week after.

Yesterday morning i saw a elderly homeless man sleeping on a bus bench using a yellow blanket as his pillow. Earlier this morning i drove past the bench again and notice the yellow blanket was in the same spot, but there was no man to be found… For some odd reason i felt slightly heart broken and i cant fathom why.

So I just bought a pound of these chocolates on impulse…. Someone stop me from eating a pound of chocolate tonight.

It’s people like her that make me hate the world a little less than I already do. If any of my followers are an exceptionally amazing male please contact me because she is single. Mind you if you break her heart ill break your soul.

The extent of human stupidity in correlation with greed never ceases to amaze me. So tired of working in an industry where people dont have to qualify to have their jobs…

Sometimes i sit and write.

i’ll write for hours on end but in the end, i end up throwing a lot of it in the trash. If its on a computer it most likely gets deleted.

But then i think, “even if i kept these somewhere, no one would see them.”

So why do i write? i guess it’s a pathetic attempt at letting someone know how i feel. but you wont.

Maybe its a way of interpreting and organizing the jumbled mess in my head. but they dont.

A waste of time you say? im fully aware, i personally dont know why i write because im sure most wont see it even in the unfortunate event of my death. she wont.

I swear, getting hungry every 1.5 hours is a curse.